I can’t help but tell myself that I wish I found out earlier

Never could I have imagined how this could have happened to me… to us… to you…

I keep sifting through questions vacant of answers

Only to feel the sands of hope slipping through powerless fingers

Dreams of grandeur lay in ruin, and everything that once was, will never be again

How am I to pick up the pieces?

I’ve grown distant

I’ve become hollow

Not a moment passes that I don’t beg to take your place

I just can’t hold myself together anymore

When alone I look in the mirror and I can’t even force a smile let alone breathe with ease

How can I have the capacity to be when my heart’s in constant atrophy?

Heartache is a lot more than it seems and why do I carry on?

Well, I know it’s what you would have wanted but it’s hard to breathe when you’re gone

I swear I’ll make you proud

I’ll hold on

I’ll miss our conversations and I’m sorry we couldn’t grow old together

We will meet again even if it takes forever

I won’t go cold nor will I slowly wither

This isn’t fair, but I see the sun

Coming to terms with our final farewell

All has unwillingly come undone

Dreaming away

Floating free

Visions of amber spilling grief

We’ll dream again

I won’t forget

I’ll heal and mend

I’ll find content

Sunsets of golden rose

Spirits dance beyond the cold

You reside in the meadow of my memories in gleaming light

Eternal glow

Ethereal

Gone with the tides

Without the grace in which you gave

I would have drowned, I would have caved

Although you’re gone, you’re always here

I’ll find my way and meet you there

Thank you

Things are better now

I’m holding on

I have so much to tell you when we meet again.

I know you’d be proud of me

(I want you to know) I think about you all the time

I miss you