First it comes on quiet creeping slow

Clever words and phrases only stain

I remain so lost and buried

Under everything that I need

When all I want is you

I've been here so very long

And every word is calculated

Never questioned or debated

All these practiced poses

I could wreck it if I had to

But I'm the wreck, so what would that do?

My masterpiece will fall apart

It was over before the start

If I burn out and slip away

If this is just a part I portray

If this is just a part I portray

You're beautiful; can I hide in you awhile?

If this is just a part I portray

If this is just a part I portray

They keep mostly to themselves

Don't make a sound in case they hear you

It only hurts me to be near you

Keep those tired eyes closed careful

Follow my instructions

And I will show you self-destruction

This masterpiece is only mine

Entirely guilty by design

If I burn out and slip away

If this is just a part I portray

If this is just a part I portray

You're beautiful; can I hide in you awhile?

If this is just a part I portray

If this is just a part I portray (can I hide in you awhile?)

I just can't let it, let it out

Oh, I just can't let it out

I just can't let it, let it out

Oh, I just can't let it out

I just can't let it, let it out

Oh, I just can't let it out

I just can't let it, let it out

Oh, I just can't let it out

If this is just a part I portray

You're beautiful; can I hide in you awhile?

You're beautiful

If this is just a part I portray

If this is just a part I portray

I don't know how it got this way

(...)

I will softly pull away

In this broken beautiful mess I've made

And in the dead and quiet I will slowly fade

In this masterpiece I made

I'll burn out and slip away

And this just a part I portray

You're beautiful, can I hide in you and stay here?

Making mostly to themselves

Hush now they'll hurt you till your heart melts

They know you're lonely

And they will only break your heart

And this masterpiece will tear you apart

I'll burn out and slip away

And this just a part I portray

You're beautiful,

Can I hide in you and stay here?

First it comes alive, creeping quiet

And this is just a part I portray

You're beautiful, can I hide in you

And stay here all night?

Well, oh I will pull away

I portray

I'll wreck this if I have to

Tell me what good would that do?

I'll wreck this if I have to

Tell me what good would that do?

I'll wreck this if I have to

Tell me what good would that do?

(...)

I've got a new disease in me,

I've got a friend that's losing sleep,

I take it hard, it's hard to take,

I'm wide awake, I'm wide awake.

One more confession, discretion's not what I need to sell,

I never needed a reason for keeping secrets from myself

And now that's just how I tell I'm wide awake

I'll wreck this if I have to tell me what good would

That do I'll wreck this if I have to

You get separated, somebody's gone,

And I don't know how this is wrong,

I'm so frustrated, falling behind,

You were a friend of mine.

I'd be so good to you,

Because they don't know you like I do

There's a difference from me to them,

And the road home is paved in star fuckers requiem,

I can never go, go back home again,

Acadia is gone

All my indecision, all of my excess,

Don't you ever tell me I'm not loving you best,

I just need a minute, I just need a breath,

It gets very hard to drink to my continued success

Slow down, it's better in the worst way,

It's getting better in the worst way

So here's another day, I'll spend away from you,

Another night I'm on another broken avenue,

Trading in who I've been for shiny celebrity skin

I like to push until my luck is over

I wonder what you're doing,

I wonder if you doubt it.

I wonder how we used to ever go so long without it.

All the work to impress, charming girls out

(I thought you wanted me)

Of their dresses and smiling pretty and pretty

(I thought you wanted me)

I'm right beside you,

(what you want what you need)

(I thought you wanted me)

I'll make this perfect again.

(what you want what you need)

(I thought you wanted me)

If I burn out and slip away,

(what you want what you need)

(I thought you wanted me)

you're beautiful, you are

I've been here so very long and I could slip into you,

It's so easy to come back into you,

I'll hide it, could I hide in you awhile.

I'm not sick of you yet, is that as good as it gets.

I never took you for a trip but sometimes

I don't know what you want, I could take it

If you need to take this out on someone.

If this is just a part I portray,

I don't know how it got this way