38308 - Jen Buxton

So it takes a year to lose the bridge

Where you went fishing with your father as a kid

With my memory's slow defeat

I have lost parts of me that I cannot retrieve

I know it feels like I go missing now and then

I can see her out there wondering where I am

And I'm sorry I can't answer when you ask

But I have no words to describe the dark

No I have no words to describe

The dark

But I have put faith in what I thought

That I could hold

Drawers of silver and rings and cheap gold

And I have been plagued by false starts

It seems so hard to draw from memory

The lines you should have known by heart

And when I quit drinking I was just thinking constantly

About the man who gave that very gift to me

And I will run until I'm empty in the chest

And when I am weary I I will rest

And if I can sleep then I will know I've passed

The test

'Cause I've sat through nights

Lost for weeks practicing your smile

Sealing up my grief

Most days I'm fine

But when it rains every my heart leaks

My heart leaks

So now my small victory's on my own

These days I'm proud of next to nothing

So when I am I stand alone

And now instead of being honest all the time

Well I get fifteen minutes with a mic and

I don't sleep so well at night

And these past few years

My short lone heart has been overdue

Well she can borrow it but it belongs to you

Now it's true some things you just don't leave behind

'Cause now when I sleep I close your eyes

When I was fourteen I thought no one really died

'Cause I've sat through nights

Lost for weeks practicing your smile

Sealing up my grief

Most days I'm fine

But when it rains every my heart leaks

'Cause I've sat through nights

Lost for weeks practicing your smile sealing up my grief

Most days I'm fine

When it rains every my heart leaks my heart leaks

My heart leaks